Positive Indoctrination for the Realist i.e. Pessimist: I lost another dear friend last week. The third in...

Positive Indoctrination for the Realist i.e. Pessimist: I lost another dear friend last week. The third in...: I lost another dear friend last week. The third in as many months. He was a bit older than me but still not so much that I consider him of a...

I lost another dear friend last week. The third in as many months. He was a bit older than me but still not so much that I consider him of another generation. In fact most of us who gathered to remember him were in our sixties. As we talked I was struck by the conversations I heard. It seems that we are the older generation now. We are the ones whose kids are contemplating what they will do with us when "that time comes".

I don't know about you, but I have questions. I have doubts and no one seems to be talking. I remember when I misplaced my keys and it had no portend of doom associated with it. I remember when I dumped my bike and it was laughed off as "you've always been a klutz". I don't know when these things took on such a sinister meaning.

I am aware that I have more years behind me than ahead now, but what does that look like? Am I the only one with questions? I know I am not the only one who is grappling with this. There were quite a few whispered comments at the memorial service; but no one seems to engage in a conversation of exactly what it feels like to come to this realization.

So I wrestle with my demons alone and they sometimes take on epic proportions that in no way resemble reality. Every misplaced set of keys, every stumble, every ache or pain becomes the harbinger of awful things ahead. How did this start? Why do we perpetuate this perception? "You know how it is when we get old." No I don't and that is the problem. If I am honest, I have always been a little clumsy. I have always misplaced my keys or my glasses. I have always had an ache here or there in my body, usually from too much or too little activity.

Am I the only one who wants to talk about what it feels like to be the older generation? Am I the only one struggling to navigate these waters? There are all kinds of books out there, but they seem to be about how to prolong our youth. I don't want to prolong my youth; I want to know how to age without feeling like I am no longer relevant.

I have tried the creams and lotions, the vitamins, the wonder drugs. I don't have nor do I want to spend money every year on trying to inject my age away. I am aging and I want to know that I am not the only one who doesn't know what that means, what that looks like. I went through menopause without a guide because I refused to treat it like a disease and make it go away like most of the women I knew at the time were doing. It was a lonely process and there was very rarely anyone to talk with about what was happening. This aging thing though, I know we are all going through it. Why are we not talking about it? Why are we not expressing our fears and doubts? Why does this seem to be such a taboo subject? I would sure be grateful to have some sort of support in dealing with the uncertainties that seem to come along with this stage of my life. Am I the only one with questions?

Easy@Home Digital Scale

I just received this Easy@Home Digital Bluetooth Scale from Healthcare-Manager.com.  I have to let you know that I received this device in exchange for my honest opinion so here it is.

This is a very pretty scale. I love the solid black screen that springs to life when you step on it.  It is clean looking and lightweight, thin enough to slip under a bathroom cabinet.

The bluetooth syncs very easily and the app is clear and concise.  This scale only measures weight and BMI (Body Mass Index).  Personally I would prefer the scale that measures bone density and body fat.  Healthcare Manager has an Easy@Home Digital Bluetooth Scale that offers these measurements. I may have to give this scale to my Hubby and get the more robust one for myself.  I will definitely get the Easy@Home scale when I do. Below is a snapshot of the app.